Brunch with Sarah

Easy to Love You

2007-05-08T15:01:05Z

In a world gone mad
And I cannot keep my place
It's all I can do
To remember Your face
The face the shines with favour on me
It's Your Grace
It's Your Grace

And just when I'm about to let go
Exhausted and weary
Thoroughly provoked
My hands, refusing to listen at all
Certain that I'd surely fall
I realise it's You who's holding on
You heard my call
You weren't far

It's easy to love You
When the going gets rougher each way
It's so easy to love You
Your Grace gives me strength every day
I can't seem to see beyond today
But it's okay
You're telling me I'm safe

Circumstances threaten to overwhelm me
I do the things I didn't think I'd do
Knowing for sure I'm hurting You
But still You're holding on
You held on

I know it's easy to love You
And sometimes I feel ashamed
But it's easy to love You
You rise above my pain
Your love it carries me through the darkest hours
You lift my chin up so I can see for miles
My dignity in place

It's so easy to love You
When You are all about Grace

Shadows threaten to do me in
Reminding me of all my sins
Yet You cast them aside
Like You dispelled my guilt
And You give me new beginnings

Those many nights I cried
And turned my face away
Were days that You were there
You always stayed

Yes it's so easy to love You
I want it no other way
Because it's easy to love You
You make me new each day

Haunting

2007-04-24T13:10:26Z

Hanging quietly
Still and clear
Your dreams come unpainted yet
Canvas clean as untouched sheet
Memories held dear

Framed and polished
Glass unfingered
Brass untarnished
An agony lingers

Silence
Piercing through a dream
Woven without dialogue
Animation of grief
Devoid of relief

The night draws on
Corridors are vacant
Doors stay tightly shut

A voice sings on
One lonely maiden
Birthed by a broken heart

Solitude proves painful
Decisions made too late
The reaper's scythe has fallen
Drawing up past hate

Infants can't sing lullabyes
To themselves
To calm

Heartaches can't nurse alibies
False comfort
To numb

Draw the sword, prepare the blade
Slice the canvas thin
Break away the frames of brass
Uncover what's within

Only with the truth you'll find
Healing process begins
Eyes can lie but not the heart
Too long worn by sin

Stark White

2007-04-23T16:01:19Z

In memory of persons past, beloveds we have lost via circumstances, and a small light of flame for the recent V.Tech turmoil.

Blessed be.

Bloodstain on the walls
Wretched, strained
Runs again

Bleach away them all
Precious as they are
In memory

Light a candle
Nurse a flame
Mend a breaking heart

Find the garment
Wrecked with hate
Tear the seams apart

Virgil, virgil
Calm and clear
Peaceful as it is

In memory of persons past
Clean the sheets
White again

Take hold of your heartache
Fuse them with embrace
Lay them on the line again

Place your fears away
Smile again, smile again
You will walk again one day

An Introduction to Brunch with Sarah

2007-04-22T17:01:43Z

The poems reflected below were shifted from a site I posted (and still do) most of my poems on.

They can be found at http://bandlink.net/forum/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=35798&whichpage=1

This is a music forum based in the UK, which consists of some people whom I've come to know in affiliation dearly through the 3 or more years I've been there as a member.

I encourage you to join if you like music and can contribute to some of the genre boards.

'Brunch with Sarah' is meant to be a simple dedication to one of my deepest beliefs in life: 'mending through words'.

Words can serve to cut and kill, or mend and heal. It's up to us whichever way we choose to take with our words, that help shape our purpose in life.

I hope that in time to come you may find some solace here in some of the writings, when you are online and want to read something unbiased.

Until the next address, hope you enjoy your stay as I humbly sign out for now.

Blessings,
Daughter of Sarah

Frostbite

2007-04-22T16:56:05Z

You can keep on crying
Cuz you'll cry again tonight
The absence of his arms is deep
Not the absence of your pride

Walk on my love and be strong
Your love has weaned a way
To prove a love unfalling
For the fights of another day

Apologies are broken
His ears won't hear at all
His heart has failed to listen
My love, though, don't you fall

So walk on walk away now
Chin up and walk along
Hold your lovely head up high
I know you can be strong

Don't press a wound that's healing
Don't fear for scars to come
What doesn't kill you strengthens
Don't let yourself succumb

You can keep on crying
Cuz tears will heal your pain
And when your tears have dried for good
You know you'll walk again.

Pierced

2007-04-22T16:55:27Z

You don't need another reason to walk away
Just turn around, look ahead and you're better off that way
It's been an aimless struggle
I've been at fault again
But should you stay
I promise you
I'll fight to clear that stain

I don't need mindless reasons
To justify your move
Just understand the deepest pain
Is knowing
The wrongs that I've inflicted
They serve well themselves
To cast a hull of red reminders
That I've put you through much hell

If you have to, walk away
If you're kind please stay
But don't confuse your pity for
A love that may have swayed

Knowledge serves to haunt me
Of the blows I've dealt to you
Knowledge serves to taunt me
Knowledge serves to kill

But if you're kind please don't confuse
Be sure you still love
Your kindness should be laced with a love
That's somehow holding still
But if you're sure then close the door
Just know you're not to blame
I'm reminded by my bloodstained hands
The cuts I've placed
The wounds I've dug
Put their bleach to my shame...
...Reminds

Absolution

2007-04-22T16:54:12Z

Broken
Like a fallen piece of clay
Shaped into a masterpiece
Now threatened.

The burst of anger rages
Stronger yet each day
Will she survive?
But with whose strength?
A tainted breath away

A lesson learnt
Yet not to gloat
It's not about her glory
The stubborn chin that's raised up high
It tells a different story

A window remains opened
She sees His tears
But turns her head away
Again
To delay healing's beginnings

Will she live through this beating?
Cognition takes its halt
She differentiates not friend from foe
But tries
Nonetheless

Regrets
Thirty years has passed now
She sits alone
At a different window
Yet not unlike His
And slowly feels serenity
Just as soon as she whispers
"I forgive".

My Love

2007-04-22T16:53:40Z

My tears, they speak
But they don't fall
Not for you
Reflective of my only heartbeat
Remaining
Whilst the winds may sweep away
The broken remnants of what's been
I will not look back again for you
My Love

I seek a new chapter
Closure's been given
A blessing I sought
For ages
My solitude's a blessed silence
So I can only hear me think
Gone way past feeling
The scars remain
Timely reminders of you
My Love

So walk on, walk away now
I've done my share of grieving
Don't seek to take
What's already been given
To you
My Love

The past will remind
But the future will heal
The present is a gift
My Love

Appreciate the fine works of time
Don't curse the untimely death
Of what used to be
A channel between us both
Both are not to be blamed
We should not be ashamed
Of what could have happened
Saved otherwise
My Love

And now upon disclosure
Of yet another delicate part
Of myself
My thoughts remain fond
Of you
But I will not seek to rekinder
It cannot happen again
My tears will not seek your sympathy
Lest your guilt, it builds
To kill you
So whilst I lay awake now
A familiar song escape me
These lips you once kissed
Now grim
But don't regret what's happened
Necessity can mangle
I'll keep a piece of you within me
My Love

Butterflies

2007-04-22T16:52:36Z

Scent the roses before they wither
Kiss their petals of silk
Don't pray to cross old paths once weaved
But seek to stray
Beyond the noises raging
Within your dying mind
Punish yourself not, now
Punish yourself no longer

You remember clearly so
Like it was yesterday
The hand you held was pulled away
To serve
You watched helplessly amiss
The planes they soar so high
Beyond the skyline you once admired
Fragile butterflies

Each night you prayed
Each night you'd wake
To hear the screams that never came
Each night you slumbered into torture
Awaiting

Come lie on my lap now
Grandma don't hold it back
The tears you've sought for years for
Will release you

You remember the inferno
Raging beyond lit skies
Of noises unbecoming
To a world so civilised

Hush now

The knock on the door
A silent cut in the night
Your worst fears confirmed
But you couldn't cry
A sympathetic look
A simple salute
A memorial service
In vain
They could not see your torment
They marvelled you at that
For being brave and calm
They could not understand
The tears just wouldn't fall
They couldn't fall at all
The pain - it cut so bad
You bled

But Grandma look back now
Come on just take my hand
I'll hold you through your past
Memories
Like Geishas of Gion
Old beauty fades away
New glory births again
Take heart

Grandpa I see your face
In these few photographs
You looked so happy there
With her
Help Grandma ease her pain
I pray the tears to come
To help release her from
Her agony

And so she quietly slept.

Carrie

2007-04-22T16:51:21Z

In tribute to Stephen King's vindictive character, 'Carrie'.

I cannot be your retribution
I will not be your alibi
I am not your consolation
But I resound your cry

There is no comfort knowing
That there's no guilt in you
While there are others hurting
Because of what you do

You live this vicious cycle
You think you heal this way
Your eyes reflect your own past
Your voice betrays your pain

I cannot stand to watch more
There is no sense in it
I do not want to pour oil
To a fire that already feeds

How careless is your tone now
In remembrance of the storm
You take such pride in destroying
You kill plunder and rob

Don't think you'll heal by inflicting
You're far from it that way
There's nothing I can do now
But lay awake to pray

Don't take it out on innocents
Who had no part in yours
Don't be the cause of their angst
Tragic is such remorse

Careless

2007-04-22T16:49:22Z

I hear the Church bell ring
I know you're waiting by the gates
Watching as I slowly cycle
Making my way in
The smile you give will warm my heart
As it's done so every time

I hold your hand through Service
There is comfort in your grip
Your voice it lifts in Worship
I close my eyes to see

Bring the rain to cover me
Bring the sun to shine
Bring the books to show me
When the words don't rhyme
Bring reminders slowly
And let go my day dream
The past will gently exit
My heart aches carelessly

There are days when I sit
By the window, shamed
Looking at the wildflowers
Feeling my old pain

The silent tears that follow
Are silent tears that scream
These silent tears they threaten
To distort my every dream

So last night I dreamed again
I saw you smile at me
It warmed my heart as I smiled back
And reached for you
I reached for you
I felt your hand in my hand
I felt my pain released
I thought I heard you whisper
"Honey, make a wish."

So I wished for you to come back
I wished for you to stay
I wished for you to be with me
I wished for you to say
"Honey I am right here
I ain't gone nowhere"
I wished I wasn't dreaming
I wished...
But carelessly indeed

So I woke up today as usual
And I knew it's me again
Everytime I start to heal
I take back all the blame

I know you're watching over me
With the good Lord up above
Asking me to let it go
For a life to be new birthed

It's night fall now
I stand here praying
The tears won't cease to fall
"Jesus you can feel my pain
It hurts but I need more
Reminders that I should let go
And should be moving on
I pray that I can forgive myself
For a life that's long been gone."

The whispering
Of new leaves
Spring brings certain gladness
Closure is much needed
I know
The burst of wild flowers touch me
And I can see their rainbow
Of colours standing in multitude
Aglow
This field of glory makes me smile
The way I used to at you
I know it was an accident
But sweetheart I love you still
It's been a dreadful journey
Two years dragged on too long
As now I lay you flowers
As now I...

Bring the rain to cover me
Bring the sun to shine
Bring the books to show me
When the words don't rhyme
Bring reminders slowly
And let go my day dream
The past will gently exit
My heart aches carelessly

Your little girl has grown now
She's beautiful like you
I know she quietly cries at night
It's been hard for her too

Your epitaph, it heals me some
I kiss the marbled grandeur
The words reflect my agony
But now redeems my pain

"A husband of simplicity
He never asked for much
Faith was all he needed
And his family's loving touch."

I take her hand, remind her
"Daddy's someplace safe
Nothing else can hurt him
We'll be there someday
Mummy's making a promise
To take good care of you
It's been a rough two years I know
But I'll be stronger just for you."

So bring the rain to cover us
Bring the sun to shine
We'll bring ourselves to move along
And find happiness in time

Little Pepper

2007-04-22T16:48:07Z

Hey you
Bright brown eyes of warmth
Tenderness that greets
Every night and day
Touching my heart
In your own special way

Hi love
Take my hand
The way you take my heart
I'll let you lead the way
Open my eyes once more
To things I'd once been jaded by
Every single day

To smell your hair
And kiss your face
Gently in your sleep

Lay you next to me
Quietly so, your breathing
Such priceless blessings

Little dear, little dear
I cannot say much
Because of those I know
Have been tainted by years
Stuck in traffic of wryness
For far too long
So lead me now
And show me how
You see through your eyes of brown
The smallest things you notice
That brings such a smile

Little dear I pray
That you'll never have to fumble
Across the world of pitch umbra
With their values long gone cold

Faith like yours
Joy like yours
Simple laughs like yours
I hope you'll teach me
How to appreciate
The tiniest things that come

If you fall
I'll place a Band-aid
Across your wound of red
But when I fall I know I'll stand
Because I have you
Your birth is blessed
I'm glad for sunshine
That comes in such different ways
And I thank God each day
Yes I thank God each day
For you.

Visual Scent

2007-04-22T16:47:27Z

Your face
Your smile
Your laughter

The gentleness in your air
The unassuming ways of you
Your very presence

It makes me blush
Just a thought
To evoke such sweet scent

It plays across my eyes
When I think of you
I see you

Sweet scent that kisses
My very eyes
My senses, they tell

Sweet scent that graces
My very eyes
Your face, that face

It makes a thought worthwhile
To consider your face
Just to think of it
Those eyes of yours they speak
So closely to my heart
That triggers such sweet scent
My breath is caught
It's caught

Exhale, exhale
I only wish
I could touch your face
Touch your lips
And plant a simple
Very simple
Kiss on your forehead

Just because
Only so because
I don't want to scare you
The strong but delicate you
Delicate only because
You are real

Splendid psychedelic hues
Colours of display
Scents of mild fragrance
Emits from your ways

Thank you
And only so
For being you.

Rust

2007-04-22T16:46:16Z

Twists of summer's comfort
Bring in the chills of cold
Untainted by the seasons
Growing yet daily bold

She marvels at the freakshow
Yet mocks the geek within
Her schoolmates start the fire
And she starts shameless teasing

Who will pity this soul?
Pathetic, shadowed, sold
The cold of seasons can't get her
Her heart has long turned cold

Who will play the fool?
Shake off the scales of deceit
Unwilling to be outcast
Deep longing to fit in

Nobody cares for her
She doesn't want to see
The freakshow is a human
But she's a parody

Summer has turned to fall
The silence holds some peace
The graveyard is unbending
In distributing ease

Her picture speaks no further
The epitaph a joke
Nobody wants to linger
No tears for them to choke

The winter brings new closure
Its snow will cover deep
Her tombstone lies uncared for
Her soul now surely weeps

Trump

2007-04-22T16:45:34Z

Third card of the hand
Illuminates
The pale facade of man

And so they ran

Runway, Run Away

2007-04-22T16:44:39Z

Watch that head held high
Gliding by
Striding by
Watch her facade slowly fall

Mark that sole to see
How she walks each day
All she touches turns to gold

All that glitters is not gold
That she knows
That she knows
And only too well
But sorrow is her friend, not foe

Watch the admiration
Flashes of light
Entails delight
From anyone else but her

How far can she carry on?
Head on for despair
Porcelain idealness
It's not fair
It's not fair
Hollow carvings crumble

Runway, run away
Run while you still can
Run like you have never ran
Because you can
You know you can

Salvation's at your door

Strawberries and Cream

2007-04-22T16:44:02Z

Memories of late
Fleet within split seconds
Rasterised

Distorted for the better
Consigned by emotions
Only to create
Illusions

Mock perfection
Fragrance sweet smelling
How long can it last?

Brings sweet smile to lips
Brings sweet dreams to sleep
Imaginary holograms of peace
Because reality's a threat

Mental rope a knot
Walk the line
Petrified

Turn to imaginary perfection
Create your little world
Strawberries and cream

Weave your little dream

Distorted

Clear Waters

2007-04-22T16:43:12Z

I don't like the drugs you feed me
Rancid
Putrid like the acid rain
Burns my flesh
Eats away my sanity
Your fraternity
Of sorts

I don't like the drugs you feed me
Look at me now
Six underground and smiling
Stupid from illogical logic
Corroded

N o. I. D o n ' t. L i k e. T h e. D r u g s. Y o u. F e e d. M e.

Allspacedout

You tempt the red within
Dragging it out by its neck
Hypnotised
Traumatised
Unjustifiably glorified
By your mind-play

I don't like the drugs you've fed me
I don't the you that drugs' fed
I don't like the me that you've drugged
Dug a hole too deep

Flubber

2007-04-22T16:42:31Z

There's nothing left on the wall
Elvis is fast asleep
All that was is now no more

Shadows play a melody
Weird as it is
Life itself a parody... of life

Enticing in its entirety
My mockery stems deep
The hunters will become the prey
Foes

Tonight sleep will come again
Draw me deep
Draw me in

And tomorrow the vicious cycle repeats

Salamander

2007-04-22T16:40:46Z

Eighth month of the year
Beckoning the cold to come
Taunting at her tears

Petals of gold and silver
Long withered in her memory
Eternity seems a deliberate pause in time

The tulip in her hand
His favourite colour of blue
Matching his ever loving eyes
Warms her with its hues

Frozen tears, they mock her
The twelfth month comes too soon
Set on wrecking her sanity
Teasing at her doom

The first tulip of the year
She lays it down alongside
The previous twelve long gone
As were the other ninety-nine

Exhaustion a blissful curse
She can no longer cry
She can no longer linger on 'what ifs'

Nothing could seem worse
Even if she had tried
Surrounding her denial with further disbelief

Reality will come sweeping down
Little sparrow, where's your crown?
Fragile and all alone you seem to be

Where has your faith now gone?
His spirit is but waiting
Seek clear skies unwavering
Take heart

Stand in silence, little sparrow...

His blood flows in the little one
Don't drown her in your tears
Spring will come where Winter leaves its mark

And Summer clears all coldness
It strikes away the chill
And even when Autumn intrudes
His love will be there still

So dry those tears and know
Seasons will come and go
But perseverance sees you through your days

Know the song your heart sings
Know the tears you cry
And let Grace walk you through your faithless ways

Lay your head down now and sleep...

He hears you weep
He sees you weep...

Little sparrow you are never alone

Save Jane

2007-04-22T16:39:59Z

And the truth speaks a great magnitude
Even when the healing is forgotten
When the days pass a long solitude
It is when the given One's begotten

The sun will see to fields of pride yet withered
The crop forget the scorching warmth it brings
It's nothing if there's gentle breezes blowing
But even snow storms take their place in Spring

Take your places in the long line forming for a day of reckoning
Where screams flee to a concave of past gratitudes

Raise the noose, kill your sanity
You recreate yourself by a system long decayed

Raised the noose, killed your sanctity
You hailed yourself by putting sin on your pedestel

Cursed is the ground that weeps

Scab

2007-04-22T16:39:16Z

Set the sail for eighty miles
But could only travel ten
No further than the petty tides
Though I can't remember when
The last time that the ocean's clear
And the tempest was at bay
Thinking such a naive thought
That I'll be better soon, someday

Journey's been taken
Lessons dealt and learnt
Another day in hell's territory
My other side's been burnt

Foolish men believe the lies
The wise will reap true paradise
Which do I believe and place my trust in?

Bruises can be touched and healed
An angry mind can yet be stilled
But memories can't be left lying dead

Am I just a mortal sin of felonies...

And still I cry
I bleed like you
The wounds might heal
But scars appeal to me still
The pain is welcoming
In its own odd little way
Give me just a moment more and
I should be okay

Don't know where exactly I went wrong
I don't wanna look back anymore

And I know riding on my own weird worth of sayings
Will only get me so far in my journey to tomorrow
If I stand to live past through this night of living dead
Getting past my tuppence worth of stale regret and hate

So fly free butterfly
So says my conscious mind
You have been delivered to the promised land

But I know otherwise
Because I live to tell
In this life you'll reap no mercy from your fellow man

Yes still I cry
I bleed like you
These wounds might heal
But scars appeal to me still
This sting is welcoming
In its own odd little way
Give me just a moment more yet
Will I be okay

Don't know where exactly I went wrong
No I don't wanna look back anymore

Don't know where exactly I belong
No I am not that weakling anymore

Victory

2007-04-22T16:37:54Z

I'll sing a song for you
Touch your face
Feel the lines
The years have brought on you

I'll sing a song for you
Pour my grace
On your wounds
That war has wrought on you

You
Of valour, might and strength
You, of absolution
You, of gold and steel
Crumbled at the whisper of a wind
Lured by a stranger's scent
A siren's call from amidst the sea

Did you not see the wreckage?

I'll sing a song for you
Take your hand
And kiss it
I'll brush the hair from your face
While you sleep

I'll sing a song for you
Heal the shame
It's banished
I'll recuperate the peace
That seemed vanished

Once again you'll walk
The crutches exiled
With its accompanied disease

Be healed.

Beloved

2007-04-22T16:36:53Z

You carry Heaven in your eyes
Everytime I look
I worship

You carry Heaven in your smile
Everytime I see
I worship

You carry Heaven in your stride
And in the way you talk
Everytime I hear you sing
I worship

Exalt and praise, I will
In my resting place
I am still
The Heaven that I know exists
Within you
Is the Heaven that I have
Within

You carry Heaven with you
Wherever you go
And whatever you touch
Grace follows

Healing comes forth from You
Empowerment of might
Mercy pours forth from Your embrace
The faith I have
Is the faith You instilled
In me

I love because You first loved
I walk because You walk
I laugh because You are my joy
Love letters from above

You turn water into wine
My tears of grief
Into those of joy
Likewise I pray with each passing day
I'll carry this Heaven that's within me
To the world

They called You proud
And laid You with stripes
They bled You

They called You false
Yet blasphemed Your name
They nailed You

And still You forgave
And still You forgive

You carry Heaven in Your eyes
Each time I peer
I revive

Glorious
Exalted
No less than great
Resurrected me
From my shame
Again

Collapse of Humanity

2007-04-22T16:36:08Z

Put your writings on the wall
Take a look around you
All that blood shed

A saviour's on its way

Put up your yellow ribbon
Know what you have to do
All those regrets

Your saviour's made your day

The smell of paint and sweat
Your frantic perspiration
Hurry up now
Whitewash those walls
As you await the prisoner's return

Hang your paintings on the wall
Over the writings you've surrendered
Cover up the inequities
You've blundered

Watch now
The yellow ribbon's turned to pale
He's not returning
Devastation
Wastes away your bones

Society's outcome
Is a splendid shade of red
Determined by its incestuous deeds

Remove the paintings from the wall
The whitewash left alone
Remove the yellow ribbon
Oh you know
You will know

Kiss the face that never comes
Witness the collapse
Of humanity

Who's to blame now?

You for covering up
Or he for never returning?
Who salutes a prison cell?

Weep while you might
When the tears are still fresh
Before you realise
Your eyes have turned barren

Sleep while you might
While the nightmares are still at bay
Before being reminded
Of much better days

Make a choice
Should you hold on to your history?
Because it's different from your past

But why cry?
Face yourself in the mirror
The yellow ribbon was awaiting
Your deliverance
Freed from your own imprisonment
Inside

So don't blame the rest
The collapse of humanity
You can't tear down
What was never there

Or you can choose
To recreate the writings on the wall
And return to your collapse of humanity